tml is the interview..

what can I say? right here, right now, here I am, trying to calm the excitement, the nervousness the happiness in inside me. watching the Poison Ivy Mv (featuring the baddies Fly to the Sky) singing in mute ( my com. speakers are dead already.) and waiting for the moment where I can get my month's pay, and the thought of facing that interview is making my feelings whirl. A rollercoaster of emotions are being felt right now, and I am trying to write this post for the sake of calming myself down. I wanna pray, so that I can face the interview tml with a calm state of mind.

if you wanna know what is going on in my life, don't worry. I'm gonna tell you in a few sentences. tomorrow, 6 Oct 2004, will be the day where I took one day leave to go back to my school for my cert. (finally) and meet al my long lost beloved friends for quite a while. Sigh.. I missed them a lot. a lot of promises to meet together are made, but somehow, most of them are never made. I wonder what is their reaction. Surprised? Delighted? Jaw dropping face expression? hee.. I can't wait to see them. a vision crept through my mind right now. a situation where I innocently pop by into a classroom and make their faces shocked by my appearance and .... (feel free to fill in the blanks.)

there's another challenge I really need Allah's help to overcome this. quite recently, I have applied for the admin post in a company located in Ngee Ann Poly. there, I really need to make sure that I will dress my best and also remember all the tips that my aunt gave me. Sometime later, I need to give her a treat. I make sure that I will remember it.

what will the outcome tomorrow will bring? I do not know.. I can only leave it to Allah's hands. Only HE can make miracles happen. I have experienced it so many times. I do know myself that I have faith in him. but only HE can make them happen. also another thing... I need to remember this rule. When something doesn't work or hinders your intention, there's always a reason why there's an obstacle being placed there in the first place. maybe, sooner or later, Allah will place you in a situation explaining why. I do understand that by thinking deeply, you will know the reason. but for now, I can only pray To HIM.

tha'ts it I wanna say tonite. Getting sleepy already... good night..